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[Aug. 23rd, 2007|09:29 am] |
Hi all,
While I'm sure many of you have seen this coming, after much inner debate, I've finally decided it's time to step back from XMM. I talk to some of you on a regular basis, but if we've not spoken recently, I've got a lot going on in my life, and investing in my characters' lives is very draining--more obligation than fun. Mostly, though, the RP-muse seems to have fled me, and being online for long periods of time is very oppressive. I find myself more drawn to my real life than my virtual ones.
I've had a great time over the last (yikes!) four years here. I've commented before about the Bat-people of Central Park, and it's amazing to see how the game has gone from a mishmash of anything goes to a living, breathing place where things make sense in their pseudoscientific way. Where mutants and humans live their lives, not just frequent coffee shops and show off cool powers.
( I've had a number of characters. )
And that's my bit of nostalgia, though I could go on forever. You've all been a great bunch to play with. Maybe I'll be back at some point, if life settles down and my RP-muse returns. We'll see. For now, though, thanks for the great times.
Housekeeping-wise, I will try to get my last Scott logs posted this weekend, so I can pass his LJ off to staffers.
Cya around cyberspace, friends. |
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[May. 8th, 2007|04:46 pm] |
So I guess I'm me again. For about a month, now, no weird throwbacks, no sleepwalking, nothing. Guess it's safe to finally start hoping its gone for good. That I'm in control.
Whatever 'it' is. Part of me? Something Sophie dreamed up entirely? Probably somewhere inbetween. It might be easier to sort out if--- It felt so good. And I still feel so miserable. Isn't that opposite of what it should be if I'm me again?
Sophie. I thought I would hate her for it. Until she had a face and a story. And it was as much out of control for her as it was for me. Course, Pete would probably point out that doesn't stop me from beating myself over it.
Bobby. I screwed with him, lied to him, kissed his girlfriend, beat him up, almost got him kicked out of our place. And still, he was the one to be there when I woke up. Make sure I was okay. It's not quite like it was before, but...maybe someday it'll be even better.
Rogue, though. As if she didn't hate my guts before. At least I haven't had to see her yet. Not looking forward to it.
Jean, though, I do have to see. Every time I pass her in the halls, I can feel how red my face is, and I don't think her shields are good enough with as loud as my ... whatever is. Embarrassing doesn't even begin to describe it.
And Jubilee. How did me getting better somehow make things worse. I need to talk to her again, but...yeah, guess I just haven't gotten the nerve yet. I see her at school and just go all...just can't figure out how to say it. Heh, the thought of running into a burning building in a few months doesn't do anything, but scared to death of trying to talk to her.
Guess that's probably the best sign that I'm me again.
( Wesley's Tarnished Knight in Shining Armor Timeline )
And that's that, folks. Logs all up and posted, backdated to save your friends' lists, but linked here in case anyone missed any of them.
Anything else might or might not get the 'knight' tag as Wesley continues to struggle back to normal. Hope folk enjoyed reading it. I sure enjoyed playing Crazy!Wesley. This is what happens when you get Jubilee-player and I going What-if. And yes, Jean-player and I planned that last scene nearly before the opening one was ever played.
ETA: Bwuh? Apparently, changing the date to backdate has absolutely no effect if you forget to check that stupid little box. Which I did on several of these (though not nearly all of them, thankfully). And editing it after to add the check to the box correctly positioned some of the entries and had no effect on others. So sorry for spamming ppls' friends' lists. I had the best intentions not to. Really! |
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[Apr. 5th, 2007|04:18 pm] |
( Go on. Touch it. You're dying to. )
TP Finale: Wesley finally loses it, with Jean bearing the brunt of it. And Jubilee, Bobby and Rogue thought /they/ had it bad. PG 13, at least, for (im)mature content. |
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[Mar. 5th, 2007|08:31 pm] |
ICly private
You know, sometimes it seems the whole world is out to get me. I finally know what I want, and if it's not Bobby, or Rogue, MOIRA MacTAGGAGT, for crying out loud, there's always someone showing up to screw things up. Doesn't matter how much I try to plan for things to be perfect. Hell, she FELL ASLEEP. What the heck am I supposed to make of that?
Don't know if I believed it or if I was just talking shit when I said we needed to let things go more naturally. Stop trying so hard. Maybe I just wanted to not feel guilty about the longer smiles, the teasing, with well, whoever. Not that I want to stop seeing her. I mean, she's smart, and funny, and HOT, but if she's not ready, and I am...
And Jean and Storm. Geez, I'm surprised that wasn't more awkward than it was. Probably shoulda been embarrased out of my skin, but the whole thing cracked me up. I wonder if Scott's actually READ this thing.
Ack, time for work.
( You know, Vodka means water, in my language (2/14, Alex) )
The Dance aftermath. Wesley goes out to get good and drunk, and Aleksander is quite happy to assist.
( Are you /really/ that stupid? )
Jubilee and Wesley talk. In circles.
( Parts two and seven, I don't want to hear about. (Jean, Storm) )
The best-laid plans of Storms and Phoenixes. |
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[Feb. 12th, 2007|10:09 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | cassy, honor, jackson, jay, jean, jeremy, jubilee, julio, kitty, knight, magneto, mira, moira, peter, storm, walter | ] |
( Valentine's Dance )
( Got it covered (Jubilee, Moira) )
Valentines, 2007. Thwarted again. |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2007|05:26 pm] |
( Doesn't seem so little )
Wesley and Jubilee. Sex, booze, drugs, and rock n'roll. Except only one of these is actually true. Brief cameo by Rogue. Log line because Jubilee made me do it. |
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